Doing so many courses and never feeling healed enough to take the next step? Lacking results?

Diseases can suck. Whether it’s as minor as waking up with a headache or suffering from regular womb issues such as fibroids or endometriosis or even as heavy as cancer can seem. The diagnosis can evoke shock, fear and anger. I want to share some of my perspectives about the inner healing of diseases today and this might not be for everyone, but if you’re here, it shows that at least you are open or curious about it. Just a disclaimer. Even for me, it was not always easy to share my truth at the beginning, as we all know that it can be uncomfortable to speak about something that is so highly debated and that can trigger people and we might get judged and criticized. Yet, as inner healing helped me, I know it might help some of you, too. So I just share my perspective and invite you to take what serves you and leave what doesn’t. Here is something I learned about going through diseases myself. The deeper reason behind diseases is often our own darkness or our own energies acting against us instead of for us. And when I say darkness, I don’t mean someone is bad, mean, dark or evil. Not at all. I mean, I went through diseases or some symptoms myself and the last thing that helps you when coming to heal diseases is to judge or condemn yourself or consider yourself bad or dark. However, opening up to the fact that there is something that arises in our reality that we haven’t seen can help the healing. At least in the experience it did. I healed my womb symptoms, and yes, I did some food adjustments and some positive mindset exercises at the beginning, and while that helped me get rid of some pain and surely supported me in my inner healing journey, in the end I confess that those practices alone didn’t help me to heal the root cause. My womb fibroids were still there. Only until I - as weird as it may sound - started to “love” my own darkness in the sense of seeing and appreciating my own darkness as a part of me, my diseases started to disappear entirely. I practiced that so often with different body symptoms, and everytime it worked for me. It was the moment I realized you can heal diseases from within. I’m not saying this is the only perspective. If you feel triggered, don’t be. Firstly, I’m not saying to never get medical help again. By all means, it’s great we have such advanced access to technology in medical care. If you feel like using some of those medical tools, go ahead. But I’m speaking to those who feel like there’s a deeper meaning behind diseases or who are like me who feel like they want to heal this more naturally from within. That’s important about inner healing. Your belief in your own capability and your determination to heal from within. It’s not a forcing. You can never really force anything. And the best advice I can give you when you want to heal naturally from within is to embrace your own darkness. That which you didn’t see. When I speak of darkness, I speak of aspects about ourselves we haven’t seen yet or we don’t want to see. Basically even judgment and jealousy are darkness. Every time you’re not fully your true self. And for that it can be beneficial to have some “spiritual background” or explore the deeper meaning of life and why we’re here on earth. I personally believe we’re here as energy beings having a temporary human experience. We play a role just like we play roles in billboard games. We have different experiences. We learn, we grow and we evolve. Sometimes we may play roles such as a dark king in chess that might seem fun in the moment, but actually later we may realize “Oh that wasn’t so wise." But in the end, it was just a game! And the human experience feels similar to me personally. Many of us had many lifetimes and many roles. No generalisation here, just an observation. Those experiences and lifetimes are like energies. And so we may have some energies within us that don’t serve us anymore. As energies don’t know any time or space, they may suddenly arise when your soul chooses that it’s time to see and integrate that shadow aspect. And so when you truly want to heal the root of diseases, it’s about shadow work. Embracing and seeing your deepest shadows that surface through the disease. It’s about massive growth. It can feel messy at first. It can be confusing and hurtful, but the healing, joy and ease that follow make you realize it’s so worth it. Like a mother that may go through a traumatizing birth, realizing it was all worth it when she holds her baby. It can be deep subconscious work. Now the subconscious mind can seem complex when we start out and it might not be so easy to access it straight away. And in my experience the first step or let’s say a good way to get started, is to focus on yourself. What’s really you? What brings you joy? What stands in the way? Those are easy impulses but they indeed can provide you with insights. Because every time you’re not yourself, it can hint at a possible shadow aspect to see and integrate. Inner healing to me personally was not always about complex healing methods. It was about seeing where I’m not myself, where I cannot accept myself, and where I go against my desires. And often we have no clue. A lot of people live their lives unconsciously. So we bring the unconscious to the conscious. We become aware. Which is the first step. You need to become aware. And so this could be the initiation into your healing journey to become aware of your darkness or shadow aspects. Not in a way to condemn darkness or shadow aspects but to understand what darkness truly is. An experience to see who you truly are deep down: light. Sometimes you can only appreciate the light if you’ve been through darkness. In other words, you can only appreciate the sun if you’ve experienced rain. Having access to that knowledge doesn’t guarantee you never get ill again. It’s rather to provide you with tools to help yourself navigate challenges in case they arise. Healing diseases made me become appreciative of each day that I’m in good health or that my heart is still beating. Because really it’s not something we should take for granted. Other people would give everything to be in our situation. And that’s a reason why diseases can appear: It reminds us or asks us to question who we are and what’s truly important in life and where our focus is. The disease can become an ambassador. A gift in disguise. If you don’t embrace it, you might only see the horror, the pain, and the struggle. If you’re open to look deeper, you see the beauty. Not the beauty in the disease itself, which can feel really uncomfortable, of course, but the consequence. The consequence of the healing it brings. The realizations. The growth. The shifts of allowing yourself to see things differently. And that’s the pain and beauty of inner healing. In the end, in my personal opinion, we cannot really be ill, but we can only have the experience of being ill. Just like in a Monopoly game, you can have the experience of being poor as a player without being poor. It’s a game. That’s why my approach is not to heal you but to remind you of your essence, what I was reminded myself, and provide you with tools and impulses that can help you to heal yourself. Because in the end, always remind yourself that you’re not powerless. You can only have the idea of being powerless. And that’s another step to approaching the healing of diseases. To reclaim that power that you can do and heal anything if you believe in your capability. There’s more strength within you than you can imagine, but if you believe you’re powerless, then that’ll most likely be your experience. Because that’s a cosmic law. What you believe in will come true because you’re a creator. Lastly, I want to point out you cannot do anything wrong. Often we are so scared of diseases because a lot of us are so scared of death deep down. Let’s be real here. We are all going to die one day. If you know me, you’ll know I like to see life with a good sense of humor. Life can seem tough and cruel, so humor helps me take life less seriously. So I want to share one final perspective, and it’s this: If you see life like a party. You’ll realize you cannot do anything wrong. Some leave the party early, some later. Some stay so long and get wasted. Some leave when it’s actually the most fun moment. All is good. All is well. One day we may reunite as pure energy and say, “Hey, remember when we went to the Earth party and got so fucked up?” I bet we’ll have a good laugh about how we once all took that life or game so seriously when it was just an experience. And while I publish that article, there is the song from Avicii turning up in the cafe I’m sitting in. I'm hearing “One day you gonna leave this world behind. So live a life you will remember. My father told me when I was just a child. These are the nights that never die." If that’s not a perfect synchronicity to end this article. Song texts can be great reminders. One final point that’s important to me to point out here. I know there are many opinions about healing diseases and it can heighten people’s emotions. I want to highlight that those are just my perspectives based on my personal experience. There are so many perspectives and approaches. And in my view, there is not just one perspective or one truth. It’s similar to a shopping mall. When you’re on the ground floor of a shopping mall, you may see bakeries and butcheries when you look out of the window. On the 7th floor, you may see the rooftop bars of other buildings. It’s not that one experience or perspective is wrong. It’s just a different perspective. And that’s exactly what this article is for. To provide you with a different perspective on approaching the healing of diseases, and you choose whether to dive deeper or skip this information. If you're interested in inner healing, stay tuned. I'm going to share further impulses and information on inner healing and shadow work.

A couple of years ago I left the corporate world. There was a little voice telling me “you gonna quit.” And so eventually, I did. Trusting my intuition was not always easy. At the beginning there was doubt, a bit of fear and worry if it was truly working out but deep down I knew another way was waiting for me. And so I learned a lot about the inner work, manifestation and living your purpose. As I went through it all myself. At the beginning, I had little idea what my purpose was or where it would take me. What I did was I followed my joy and passion. It took me to writing children books eventually. And adult comics. Never ever would I have imagined writing comic books. Yet, I discovered so many new aspects and potentials within me I didn’t know existed within. They were dormant. I mean I was in my old job. How should those dormant talents have come alive back then when you always do the same things? Today I write books. They combine wisdom and my interest about the cosmos together with a sense of humor and charm. I love writing. I always have. Writing comes so natural to me I don’t even have to think about it. I allow my heart to guide me. I believe there is a higher force within each one of us. There’s this feeling or little voice that we all have access to when we quiet the mind. It’s the voice that guides us. It’s the voice that lets us know when something is off. It’s often just a matter of listening. The world is in trouble. It’s full of judgment, competition, power games, wars. And I believe you can’t blame the politicians or ancestors. That’s the easy one. The harder one is this: it depends on us. If each one of us questions their beliefs and takes responsibility for their actions the world would look differently. It’s the path to true sovereignty and inner freedom. The moment you choose yourself. The moment you choose not to follow or blame others but the moment you take charge of your life. The moment you choose to opt for more, to discover more and to be curious about more rather than just surviving, paying the bills. So I encourage people to discover their own purpose and gifts. Do more of what you love. And for now, if you feel drawn to, today I'm launching my first children's book about the big bear. If you feel drawn to a cute children's story that is totally touching for adults too, check it out. If not, I encourage you to follow your interest and joy this weekend. What is something that lights you up? Whether it's writing, drawing, fishing, swimming, do it. You never know where this hobby, passion or field of interest can take you one day.

Dealing with strong emotions such as rage, anger, jealousy, hate or fear? Emotions are like waves in the sea. You can drown in them. They can pull you down. They can overwhelm you. Just like when all is calm and a rough wave sweeps over, it won’t be the same. So you gotta learn to embrace emotions. Face them. As uncomfortable as they might seem. And then there may come a time you decide you no longer want to swim there. And that’s the same with your life. There comes a moment you may decide you no longer want to feel that way. And just like you need to change a different bay, you got to change your thoughts, beliefs and concepts that made you feel that way. Because it’s your choice. You always have the choice to swim wherever. In your life you have the choice. If you are constantly angry, sad, disappointed, you can decide to change it. Change your thoughts, change your actions. But that’s what feels uncomfortable. Change is always uncomfortable. It’s much easier to blame the waves then take responsibility for how you react. Change starts within. You can sit by the ocean and complain how high the tides are. Or you can change the setting. That’s my advice. Don’t wait for an external event to get better. Don’t wait for the perfect moment (to feel ready), it may never come. Change the setting. Switch direction. If one does not turn out the way you wish, there is another way waiting for you. Don’t push through for the sake of it. But in case you’re encountering a big wave don’t condemn it. Because everything you experience teaches you something. It may teach you more resilience. Be open and ask yourself what it’s teaching you. Sometimes the wave aka emotion is so rough, you may get hurt. Yes, it can be hurtful. It can feel frustrating. It can feel awful. Yet, don’t dwell in pain or regret for too long. Remember, you cannot change what happened but you can always learn from the experiences. The learning lesson turns into wisdom. Wisdom allows you to take different decisions next time. Don’t make the mistake again and again. Don’t repeat old things again and again, not that there are real mistakes anyway, but once you get swapped away by a wave and you hit a rock, you wouldn’t do or bathe there again, would you? If you got hurt once, don’t do exactly the same thing again. And if there are no waves, appreciate it. Be grateful because nothing is for granted in life. If you’re facing ups and downs frequently, then learn to ride the waves like a surfer, use the lows to pull yourself up. And have fun along the ride. Lows may suck but remember this life is not forever. It’s not about achieving anything but enjoying the ride. Only when we experience the lows, we can appreciate the highs. In the end, its all just an experience. Stop judging the waves into good or bad rather see it as one ocean with different shapes and forms that allow you to have different experiences. And don’t judge other surfers because remember we are all in the same ocean. See the world as if it was one just like the sea is one. Some parts of the sea are darker, others lighter, some are rough, some are soft but it’s all one. In the world there’s different humans too but together we are one. Imagine the small wave would start war against the big wave. It would be absolutely crazy. Don’t start war or heavy fights against another for you’re only fighting against a part of yourself. Just like there are small waves, big waves, foamy waves, there can be different forms of existence. That makes the sea diverse. Don’t prove, impress or please another if you want to live in peace. Would a big wave prove its worth to a small wave? I don’t think so. It explores its own capability and beauty. Allow yourself to be unique. Allow yourself to be you! Don’t be fooled by time just because something seems like it’s 5 years ago. Time is relative. You may have changed and become a different version just like a big wave may turn into a calm wave but it’s still part of the big ocean. You are never separate and it’s still the ocean. Time is not moving but you’re moving through time. Enjoy each moment as this life is not forever. Make the most out of it. Explore new territory. Try new possibilities. Have the courage to chase your dreams and your deepest desires. For that’s your soul communicating with you trying to make new experiences together with you in a human form.

Maybe you know the feeling too…. You’re on your way to work, checking social media... waiting for food, checking social media… waiting for a friend, checking social media... Not sure what to do next, checking social media… if you’re bored, checking social media… I was no different. I was checking social media right after getting up and right before sleeping. I wasn’t always the one producing content but absorbing content. O ne day, I had an astonishing oberservation. Social media can drain your energy to an extent it can impact your mood, often unconsciously. How? Not everything that’s shared on social media is positive. People would focus on the positive stuff, but it doesn’t mean it’s the truth. Yet, energy only knows the truth. If you’re feeling terrible and put on a smile on and say something nice to be liked, the underlying energy is your bad mood that comes along with it. It’s so subtle, you may not recognise it. It’s like when there’s fresh water and the water tap is calcified, your water may not be so fresh. But it’s not visible at first. And that was exactly what I could observe or feel with social media. People that I followed drained me, not all, but some random ones that appeared. Sometimes it made me become judgmental or other times I suffered with someone. Don’t get me wrong, it’s good to have empathy but there came a point where it drained my energy to an extent it wasn't really bringing me further or contributing to my joy throughout the day. Mentally, I felt less clear. One night, I tuned into my intuition and my intuition told me to have a social media break for the next three days. It came as a surprise. And as I always follow my intuition I did so. I signed off for 3 days. And boy it wasn’t easy. And yet it was astonishing. Instead in the night before going to bed I wouldn’t check social media, I would spend half an hour dreaming of my future. Focusing on what really matters. Getting engaged with my desires. In the morning, I didn’t start with social media but I would focus on my day. I would focus on gratitude. D uring the day, I focused on myself, my emotions, my mood and what made me feel good. I was far less judgmental and drained within 2 days already. And I became clear that following random strangers and following strangers on their parties, anniversaries, dramas and all sorts of things (don’t get me wrong they do sound nice) drained my energy. I was so focused on other people and sometimes I found myself feeling bad. I started to compare myself completely unconsciously. I started to judge. I started to absorb their energies. And guess what? Now I was in the energy of judgment and comparison. When you're in those energies, guess what, no good can result. Worst of all, it's how I continued my day. When I gave up my social media consumption for 3 days unless I felt guided to share something, I felt so much more alive. So much lighter. So much more centered. I felt no need to engage in random stranger’s dramas and stories. In my opinion, we all crave for attention and love. And sometimes people go on social media to find the attention they cannot find within themselves. And that’s where energy vampirism can appear. I know it sounds harsh but it’s not really as harsh as the word implies. What I mean by energy vampirism is when you don’t feel loveable or cannot accept yourself deep down and hoping for acceptance and approval outside of you. A nd that’s why we can feel weak. The path to true power and a joyful life is when you’re centred in your own energy first. When you know yourself first and don’t have to strive for attention or approval by others. Some people even ask strangers what colour of their house or car or dress they should choose. By all means, this has become an interesting world where people would ensure their followers approve. And I ask myself what for? We don’t live in their house. They don’t live in mine. It only has to be appreciated by me. If we’re constantly concerned what others think of us and ensure we choose what they would choose we are like slaves to external circumstances. And on the other hand, when you consume content, it can leave you focus on other people’s lives, not your own. Some people become sad or disappointed when a stranger doesn’t respond. How odd is that? I come to remind you, just like I reminded myself, you’re not here to be liked and appreciated by others or even have a say in other people’s lives. You came here to create and live your own life the way you want in the first place. How many people can truly say they created a life they love and that truly fulfills them? Not many. And so the social media detox can help you become clear on your own life, habits, emotions and how you wish to spend your days. This life is not forever, do you want to look back one day realising you watched other people live their life on social media while you could have made much more out of yourself? I leave that up to you. If you felt inspired by this story, give it a try. Sign off for 3 days or whatever feels good to you and focus on yourself and your life and your dreams and I’m sure you’ll be surprised. That’s true self love. Self love doesn’t mean to polish your nails or talk about it. It means taking time to nourish yourself even if no one out there approves or likes it. They don’t have to. That’s the deeper meaning of self-love. And btw, You know what’s much better than watching people on holiday? Creating a life that can make you feel like you’re on holiday. Or Going on a real holiday yourself. Let’s not mix up the digital world with the real world. What does that have to do with manifesting? Oh , a lot if you ask me. We don’t create what we wish for, we create what we are an energetic match to. So if you’re constantly in the energy of judgment, worry, or absorbing other crazy energies, that’s what our reality becomes like Without a doubt social media can encourage and inspire too, this is just a reminder to become aware. Become more Aware of your energy and what you spend your time on. It has an impact on your life in tremendous ways.

Why being an introvert can be a form of strength

Vision boards can hinder you from your true potential. I kept having visions about things that require a lot of humour, communication and other people - in other words things that aren’t for me or that I wouldn’t choose or write on a vision board as I used to be rather shy and introverted. Until I realised exactly that. It makes me embody different aspects of myself. Growth doesn’t happen in the mind. Visions cannot be imagined in the mind. They are birthed through the heart and are beyond the mind’s control or capability of visualisation. Those visions from the heart can scare you or even put you off. Your capability of imagining things are often out of your current self, not the future self living dreams and your full potential. Because the version of you that lives the future realities or dreams embodies different aspects than you do right now otherwise you would already be living that reality. Sometimes it required me to change locations against my will or desire only to realise the higher self is desire-less. Self less. It moves where it’s guided to, not where the human finds pleasure. I was once in Greece on a mountain and I felt like eating a chocolate waffle. In that moment my higher self asked me “do you want to have pleasure as a human or growth as a soul?” And I realised that longing for a chocolate waffle came out of the desire of not wanting to feel certain emotions in that moment. I realised what brings you joy and pleasure is sometimes not what brings you growth as a soul. Because a chocolate waffle can lower the vibration and we can lose momentum. And yet it doesn’t mean to never have fun. Of course we’re here to be joyful and have fun. But there’s a subtle difference whether you’re guided towards something or whether it’s out of a trigger. What’s the difference between an impulse and a trigger? In my experience, an impulse comes from within. It’s not tied to external circumstances. Like me in Greece, I had the impulse of hiking. An impulse from the intuition is often the first idea that pops up before the second and third arise. That can be the mind. Not always. It’s hard to generalise but I’m simply describing my experience. E.g. like in my situation. The first impulse was hiking a mountain. There I faced some challenges. So I had the impulse to eat a chocolate waffle. It came from not wanting to face the challenge. It was more like a distraction. And that’s a trigger. It involves outside circumstances. E.g. feeling low and craving for sugar although your higher self tells you ‘no’. So we have to become very alert whether the impulse is really from our intuition (higher self) or our mind. How can we differentiate? A question I ask myself is this: Would the best version of me with 0 stress, fear, the version that lives all her dreams do it in that moment? Am I doing it out of pure joy or because I’m being confronted with something? Of course there’s no right or wrong decision Impulses from the higher self can sometimes include challenges as they make us grow. So it’s important to trust and follow the guidance even if you’d go like “my current human self would choose differently.” Well for sure it would as our current self holds certain limitations and patterns that binds us to that current reality. If we really want to follow our dreams, we have to grow into that version living it first. And our higher self guides us towards it. And it will guide us to places , even if they don’t make any sense, people and situations where we can have certain realisations or sometimes see our blind spots or simply become aware of old behaviours and patterns that no longer align with the version of ourselves living the future dreams. Before we start living our dreams or make them a reality it’s important to embody the qualities of that version living it. That makes us magnetise our dreams the fastest. And why it challenges us to new places, situations and people is because our human self loves routine. And routines are comfortable. But as our friend Einstein once said and I’m saying it in my words… You cannot do the same things each day and expect different results. So if your dreams seem far away or you haven’t achieved them yet there’s still some patterns to be released or some new aspects to be embodied first. And the higher self will guide you towards situations and people so that you can spot the blind spots or make you embody new aspects. And so sometimes we have to trust and just follow that impulse. Even if our current self would crave something else. That’s when truth growth starts. It starts from within.

10 life lessons our golden retriever taught me. Our fury friends can teach us a lot! Sometimes they master life more than we do. They master the art of relaxation, joy, community - everything we can benefit in today's society that shows increasing numbers of loneliness, depression and disconnection from each other. Here's the 10 lessons to remind ourselves of what truly matters. Authenticity What it means to be authentic and fully yourself. If you are sad, be sad. If you are mad, be mad. If you are happy, be happy. Show it. Be it. Own it. Be authentic of how you truly feel and who you truly are. In today's world that's become used to wearing a mask and trying to fit in, authenticity is rare, yet a key to being happy self. To love without expecting anything back Honestly, how many people can truly say that? Can we share a bit more love today? A bit more kindness? A bit more compassion? Without expecting anything back from another person. Just from the joy of sharing love. Oh, how beautiful. To be so joyful without making money Not a single day passes that he‘s not joyful and yet making an impact in the world just by being himself. Too often we are so concerned about money or doing something big forgetting that it’s not necessarily about money or fame or achieving something big. The more we share our joy, the more we make an impact on the people around us. We don't need to earn our worthiness. We are worthy to be happy and even good enough without money. Being in the present moment Not worrying about tomorrow. That can be a tough one. Bills, children, jobs, duties... Living in the here and now can be a challenge. Not for a dog though. Can we make more time to be more present today? Being himself He’s not ashamed of a big belly, his genitals, his little bump in his face… it’d never come to his mind to get a beauty treatment. He’d actually refuse that. It’d never cross his mind to have a bigger nose or a smaller leg. He accepts who he is. How many beauty standards tell us the opposite? Can we just see ourselves through the eyes of a dog? Can we love and accept ourselves a little more today even with all our weaknesses? A sense of community He plays peacefully with others, and the joy of gathering in a family or dog community brings as much joy as being on his own. Sometimes mingling with others instead of distancing ourselves from each other can make all the difference. In today's world, where an increasing number feels disconnected, it can help to join a community. Make the most out of each situation and circumstance No matter if there is wind, snow, rain or sun, make the most out of it. Play with a stick even in the snow. In other words, make hard circumstances fun. Find something to play with even if it’s uncomfortable. Make an uncomfortable situation comfortable. Yes, life has its ups and downs but let's not forget it's up to us what we make out of it. Take a break and chill when you feel like it Not convincing yourself to strive harder but to relax instead. My dog takes a nap whenever he likes to. He doesn't feel guilty or bad. Too often we are convinced to work a little longer and a little harder. Can we just remind ourselves to take more (little) breaks without feeling guilty if we feel like resting? Observe The best thing you can sometimes do is to simply sit and observe. Observe yourself and others without judging or attacking or engaging. There’s a power behind observation. Can we simply observe things as if we were on Earth for the first day? We’d see things in a completely new way. Be persistent Especially with food or if he wants something. He's persistent. So if you want something, stick with it. Be persistent. Never give up. There is always this little hope even if no food is left on the plate, the small crumbs count too. Our fury friends are more than just dogs. They are friends, healers, comforters, teachers and remind us to enjoy life a bit more!

I remember I was sitting back home in a small town in Germany. My life crumbled a couple time ago. Yet, I put myself out there. I did what a lot of people do. Engage in personal development. Read books. Absorb courses and content. Ready to start over doing what I love. More freedom. And I could see some first fruits of the work I put in for weeks, months, if not years. It didn’t show up in a way I wanted or expected it to be. It didn’t show up in money, or financial overflow, to be precise. But it showed up in more joy, in tons of realisations, ideas, a new sense of self. A promising future. But I didn’t see it as such back then. And that’s the first realisation I had looking back and only realising now. Abundance is not all about money. Abundance is the wealth of ideas, realisations, vitality, health, opportunities and much more. So as I didn’t see monetary fruits I went within and there was that certain thing that told me to go to Asia. And deep down I thought Asia could help me solve my problems. Yet, What I didn’t realise. Most decisions are unconscious and based on certain patterns and beliefs we hold deep within. (I just remember I had certain doubts about going to Bali.. it was rainy season. Was it really the place? I asked myself.) Looking back. The truth was this: I was kind of escaping from my reality in Europe. And I’m not ashamed to be vulnerable enough to admit it, I’m glad to finally realise it to break out of it. And I see a lot of people with similar issues that are on the “spiritual path”. I thought Europe was full of corruption only to realise much later that nothing exists outside of you. Europe is not full of corruption unless you hold those things deep within your subconscious that makes you have those perceptions and experiences. And so it happened, I came to Bali. And by all means. It’s a beautiful island. There’s a certain hype that Bali provides healing. And it certainly does. I had my fair moments, I had inspiring encounters that I’ll cherish but I also had massive learning lessons. I had healing , I had disappointments, and I had massive realisations. But after 7 weeks of Bali I flew home with the exact issues than before. And it taught me the biggest lesson. You cannot escape your reality. You cannot move to a place like India or Bali and expect them to change you. I mean they may do so. They may shape you. I’m not denying that. But the biggest learning lesson I had for myself was this: it’s never really about a place. It’s your internal belief system. If you’re escaping a place without making full peace over there, then those issues will hit you one day, even years or decades or lifetimes later in one way or another until you face them. Here’s how it showed up in my life. I arrived in Bali and I could suddenly remember a previous life. And I honestly believe - at least that is my experience - when we feel attracted to a certain place we either had a previous life or there’s a certain energy we resonate with. I remember I was this monk that was visiting Bali in a previous lifetime, I could see myself walking past a street, trying to find enlightenment or let’s put it less scary: finding answers about who I was. I could see myself as the version of a monk running from one place to the next, praying in one temple after the other, and that pattern was repeating itself. Trying to find the answer or solve the problem on the outside. And this pattern repeated unconsciously, just in a different setting in this lifetime: Me changing apartments all the time in Bali as I simply didn’t feel good. Me trying to go to different healing places and mentors and so on. And while I got very valuable and inspirational conversations and healing experiences I wouldn’t want to miss, I realised the biggest pattern that was limiting me and that was repeating itself unconsciously: Looking for help, answers, inspiration, saviour on the outside. Exactly what made me go to Bali. The unconscious pattern of travelling somewhere to find something somewhere else outside of me. And I’m not saying to never get help or inspiration. There’s a subtle difference between getting guidance from someone and kind of relying or becoming dependent on external help. And this is to encourage you if you feel sad and disappointed in your current home. You don’t need to travel somewhere to feel better. It’s a pattern I observed in other people in Bali and other places more often than I thought. The constant need for self optimisation or spiritual healing. And it made me realise. We are all not so different after all. Instead of just feeling good enough for a moment for who we are without trying to *be* whatever or even being or becoming someone else. And That’s what i mean. If you don’t solve the pattern it’ll chase you even to the next lifetimes. And without a doubt, a travel, a healing session all of that can massively support you but the most important lesson to always keep in mind: you can only find the answer within. You can only solve the issue within. Not by escaping your old home or reality but rather by questioning the self that keeps you limited or made you create and experience that reality in the first place. And it can mean to face deep pain and uncomfortable emotions and break your own limitations. Let’s remember. We create everything. We even create religions and politicians as long as we consider ourselves unworthy and powerless. I honestly believe that those systems serve a purpose and won’t disappear until we change ourselves and finally realise we are powerful creators. And a lot of those unconscious programs that run in the background can come from previous religious life’s, amongst others, no generalisations here. Religions and other systems want to make us believe that the answer is to be found in a book, in a place , in the sky. Wherever. All that keeps you stuck. Powerless. And I recall the most touching moment I remember from this previous lifetime as a monk. The monk finally came to a temple and he perceived the voice of a high priest deep within his heart, who is not linked to any religion, it’s a person that’s attained a high level of conciousness in a lifetime and can provide guidance. And he told the monk telepathically that the answer is not to be found in a temple but deep within. The monk finally found what he was looking for. The priest asked the monk to go back home and share his truth with others. But the monk didn’t. Out of the fear of judgment what other monks and people think of him. He died sadly for not speaking his truth and pretending not knowing. And now when I recalled the eexperience, I kind of connected with this high priest who asked the monk and me at the same time as we are one and the same, simply different expressions: Are you telling the truth this time in this lifetime? Or repeating the same ‘pattern’ as the previous version of you as a monk? I was facing the same issue again in this lifetime. Not speaking my truth. And I made a pact this time. I’m not escaping. I’m embracing old shattered unworthy aspects and even love those for they served a purpose and finally learn to live and share my truth. Too often we are so scared of sharing our truth. It’s hurtful and hard to be vulnerable especially if it contradicts with what so many other people and books say. But let’s not forget we don’t break patterns by keeping up the fear of speaking up. We break the pattern by just doing so. By speaking up. By allowing ourselves to be and speak our truth and allow others to speak their truth. And so I flew back after spending in Bali for 7 weeks with the biggest realisation. To no longer escape my current reality. But to face it. To not find the solution in a spiritual place or a place that’s considered spiritual but rather within myself. Because let’s be honest. The whole world is energy. I personally believe or at least that’s my current experience, our soul chose a certain body, nationality, parents to have certain experiences and to learn or release certain patterns. And I fly back to Europe with a certain level of excitement. To finally embrace old aspects of myself that were trapped and even fragmented. And for the first time, I can appreciate my home place for what it is. A place my soul chose for this lifetime to have certain experiences and learning lessons. To make peace with the old versions of myself first before choosing which place calls me next. Not from a place of escaping from home but truly feeling good with who I am and releasing who I’m not. And my biggest realisation: Money and unworthiness go hand in hand. It’s not necessarily about affirmations, following a certain strategy, I did all of that and it didn’t help me. It’s deep codes and beliefs in the subconscious mind that are blocking the flow of abundance just like an old malicious file on your computer or phone does despite you trying everything to restore the battery. It won’t unless you kick out that old app or file. And so it’s the same. It’s not about getting new apps aka new homes and friends and places, it’s about kicking out what no longer serves first before you can think of getting new apps aka new homes, friends or *insert whatever*. And yet I’m glad that Bali helped me see my fragmented self’s. And to finally be more of who I truly am. And that’s all that’s required. Life doesn’t ask you to become someone special. But just release everything that holds you back from being yourself. Bali didn’t change me, but the experiences helped me see things and recognise patterns within me that I didn’t see before. And that’s the beauty of growth ♥️ Let’s remember the most important thing no matter what experiences we may or may not have gone through and it’s this: That nothing was a mistake. Nothing was a coincidence. Nothing was lost. Nothing was wrong. It was all an experience to help you grow further. To evolve into greater and greater versions of who you truly are. Embrace new aspects. And be more of who you truly are. And I would like to share a spiritual joke by one of my hosts here in Bali with a great sense of humour It’s Air Ubud and while you can encounter some animals there, it has a certain ‘vibe’ Let’s not be so spiritual … let’s be more real! 🙃 P.S. My words are more than words. They carry energies that can help you spot patterns and release codes. So if you feel some weird emotions or questioning certain things. It’s a good sign If you’re curious about downloads, I’ll soon teach you more about how to co create with your higher self’s so that you can receive downloads and ideas so that you can start embodying the full version of who you are. It’s more than visualising a bright future in your mind. It’s the embodiment of your inner gifts that want to be expressed and that can only be expressed through you, no one else. That’s your unique blueprint. That’s where the magic and often the fear starts. Stay tuned ✨

I remember back in 2020 I travelled to Sri Lanka. My intuition told me to travel there. Yet, back then I had no idea it was my intuition. It was just a strong attraction or pull. Like sometimes some countries call us. We feel a strong pull without really describing what exactly it is. It was during the pandemic that people advised me not to go there. On top of that, Sri Lanka experienced some political upheaval. But my intuition, something from within, pulled me there. So I trusted myself, back then I wouldn’t often trust myself, but it was one of those moments I didn’t care what other people told me. When I arrived in Sri Lanka, I felt like home. Not that I would move there, but something was like home. Like arriving somewhere familiar. Where you could relax straight away. Where your nervous system calms down. Where you are in awe. On my way from the airport to the destination was a 2-hour drive. I was in awe by the nature – so many palms, bananas – driving along the ocean left me speechless. I could quickly relax. I could reflect on life. I felt so good. Sri Lanka has a great energy – at least I noticed that if a place calls you then because something matches within you. In Sri Lanka, I didn‘t observe or experience any political upheaval as described in the news – which made me realise that the news can dramatize and exaggerate and even put things that are simply not accurate – and the scarier thing is how many people buy into the news without knowing the truth. I experienced so much friendliness and kindness. The Sri Lankan I met were one of the kindest people I’ve ever met. And I heard from others they found Sri Lankis aggressive – and that was my second realisation. You cannot generalise! And surely not generalise for a whole nation. Let’s be honest, there are rude individuals in every country and yet there are as many nice people in every single country. IT made me realise it depends how you encounter people too. It depends on your own energy and how you treat other people. Then one evening, I took a TukTuk which is like a motorbike and bicycle in one – somehow their equivalent to a car, cars are less frequent, at least at that time. I met a TukTuk driver who wanted to charge me more than the other drivers. And I started to bargain and he insisted on the price and I couldn’t see anyone else and it was getting dark. I got a little furious. Then when I got back to my room, I thought like Sri Lanka is officially considered a 3rd world country. People live in little houses, houses that wouldn’t even be accepted in many European countries. They see tourists be in hotels paying more for a night than there weekly or monthly wage. And I really started questioning my own behaviour. Do I really need to bargain? Do I want to be that person who bargains for 50 cents? It made me question my own behaviour. And I observed that many others were like me. I decided to be generous. And that’s what people in Sri Lanka taught me. Being helpful. Being kind. Smile. The Sri Lankans I met smiled a lot because I smiled at them! And that’s another thing. When you smile, the world smiles back! Your energy, attitude and respect towards people even of different cultural background matter. It’s what people reflect back to you. I travelled to another area later. And one night it happened. There was a power cut shortage ordered by the government. People didn’t have any power for the whole night basically from 7pm – no WIFI, no lights in the rooms– and that was the night one of the worst thunderstorms hit Sri Lanka – I was in my dark hotel room by the sea being completely scared. I could feel the lightning hit the ocean – or that’s at least what it felt like – as if the ocean was shaking - a feeling I’ve never felt before. It didn’t stop. It made me realise what a precious life we live. Many people desperately want to manifest money and abundance, and I totally get it, I was no different. But in those moments you realise how abundant we are – having light, WIFI, a high standard of living… So, that made me realise that abundance or the lack of it only exists in our head/mind! And the beliefs we hold in our mind make us experience the lack. Something else almost made me tear up. As the lights went off and it was getting dark, there were many tourists who didn’t know about that event and felt lost without WIFI and had no clue how to get home. It was many locals who were there in their poor wood cottages with a candle guiding tourists to their home places, telling the way in such a kind and helpful way. Ironically, a lot of hotels (not mine, as I was staying locally) had power aggregates, they were the only ones who had lights and WIFI. And I had so much respect for those Sri Lankan people guiding people home. Instead of venting about tourists having light, they showed so much compassion. It taught me a lot about humanity. You can have all the money in the world, but at the end of your life you leave without. It’s not how much you have, it’s who you are and how you treat people. I once read a quote “People will forget what you said, but they’ll never forget how you made them feel” And that’s so true for me. I will never forget my stay in Sri Lanka. And while I believe each travel experience is unique, I wouldn’t generalise for a whole nation, my experience was superb. I had another TukTuk driver who told me his dream would be Europe, especially Germany. He told me we would have lots of money. And I told him. “No you live in a dream place here” I think it sparked confusion between both of us wanting to swap countries in that moment. When I came back to Europe, I was so surprised at how fast-paced everything was, how stressed everyone looked. Sri Lankan people had so much less and actually more to worry about than us, and didn’t nearly look and feel so stressed than many people in the streets of many European cities do. So always remember, stress, lack and suffering happen in the mind. In fact, it doesn’t matter where you are. Some people think they first need to travel somewhere to find themselves, and while some countries may have a special energy, you can be happy and joyful everywhere. Joy is an inside state of being. It cannot be achieved through material goods. This doesn’t mean we aren’t allowed to have material goods, of course we do, yet it’s a reminder to appreciate the things we have and what’s truly important, especially in times of great misunderstandings and political insecurities. To come together as one nation. To have compassion for others. To show others love and offer some help if we can help. After I returned back, I knew why I was guided to go to Sri Lanka. I learned so many learning lessons I couldn’t have learned in any book. And it made me aware it’s not what you read in the news or in books, it’s the experience that counts. And it made me realise another thing. How important it is to follow our heart when we travel. Often, we may also travel to a place because it’s “the place to be” or a blogger talks about that or because of the price. I understand that too, however, sometimes it’s not about those shallow reasons, it’s rather where your heart leads you to. I’m so glad I listened to my heart and travelled to that country. It made me feel so rich on the inside, I felt like a better version of myself. So sometimes the countries you feel a magnetic pull towards have a gift for you. And even if it’s no material gift and simply a good time, nice encounters with people or major life realisations. Who knows what countries have to offer. Sometimes following our intuition can lead us to new opportunities. So it’s so much more valuable than all those visualisations and dreams we hold in the mind. Sometimes it’s really important to become “desireless” and allow the ideas and inspiration from your intuition to flow. Just when that sudden idea popped up “Sri Lanka” when I pondered where I could travel. To my mind, it didn’t make that much sense, but I realised my heart knew why. What does this have to do with manifestation you may say? A lot if you ask me. It reminds us to spend our moments consciously. To follow our intuition. To be kind. To be open-minded. To encounter as beings as part of you. The more you move into a state of being like that, the more miracles and opportunities will unfold. I could have gone to XY because someone else found it nice but I wouldn't have made the same experiences.